Life Coach Tip of the Week...Brought to you by Jet-Dry

So starting over is my current favorite TV show. I watch it everyday when i get home from work. Every week they have a life coach tip of the week. Here's what this week's is. I thought it profound.

"Let the past be the past. Don't keep remembering, repeating, reconnecting with what you THINK went wrong. Let go, be free because the past has already passed by"

As the thunder cracks i think to myself. Wow! that's so what i need to hear. Though I don't want to. It's sooo true. WHY CAN'T I GET OVER THE PAST???? WHY CAN'T I JUST STOP THIS? but then i know why. Because i catch myself thinking .."i really just want to think about it...then maybe it will still be real to me..maybe then i can still live the past a little..even if i can't really live it." it's kinda sick but i like feeling the pain of the past. I actually miss it a little if i don't think about the past hurts i have a few times a day. aagghhh. I'm soo in a habit it's not even funny. I don't know how to train myself to not think about it. Because if i think about not thinking about it then i'm thinking about it by default right? right. What do i do? i need a life coach to help me through it. maybe i'll get on starting over.. no maybe i won't...lol! eh..dunno would you support me if iwent on starting over? i have a few things i want to work on...here's the list..

1. Budgeting
2. Getting over the past
3. Being a "grown ass woman" aka...take responsility and not procrastinating
4. Being honest with people it's hard to be honest fully with..aka my husband.
5. Gaining respect enough for myself to speak up for myself and not get trampled on by people i'm too afraid to speak up to.
6. Dealing with my heart problems..aka actually crying and greaving and accepting that i really am sick and because of it i can't have my own kids, that i may go down hill and eventually i will die because of it. Basically dealing with my fears.

is that enough to get on a show about changing your life and starting over?
i guess i could just try.. i mean it i'm sick of having the same sh*t go through my mind..over and over and over agian...

Crazy Times Man!

So, this was my night..waiting in line for "cheap gas" listen to the audio!

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So tonight i helped my friend bridget with her blog. you should check it out.. just remember it's still under construction!
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IT'S THE BIGGEST GAMER DAY EVER!

Since i got home an hour and a half ago i've watched g3 which is the gamer's network on cable. Can i tell you it must be the biggest day in gaming history. at E3 which i guess is the gammer's convention about the latest coolest things comming out this year. The Nintindo WII looks really cool actually. But there is like no real information that's been given out. My husband wants a PS3... i think that's what it was. That's like $600. he says he'll save up for it. Why can't we save up for a nice HONEYMOON??? lol we haven't had that yet! that would be nice! ooh well! lol i'm a game widow. so sad!

T.V.~ What a distraction

I often wonder if my world would crash in around me if i didn't have TV. Honestly i don't know if it would. I know i'd miss my shows that i watch almost daily. but really, TV is just a distraction. A huge distraction that makes me sooo lazy! i live with people around who have the TV on as background noise. I think really it just annoys me... My dog freaking knows me and my husband's schedule by what TV is on. How crazy is that?! If i spent as much time with God instead of watching TV maybe i'd be even closer than i am to him. I dunno...maybe i'm just ranting because there's a TV right next to me on for background noise while the pups battle it out in a barking match on the other side of me...talk about headach!

yeah, we have cake!

this was at my youth church. we had a going away/ happy birthday party for kelly! you can hear rick saying "yeah we have cake!!"

What my boring life is made of