Lost In Translation....

I've been thinking about what I've become in my life...where I've ended up. I realized somewhere in finding what i want out of life I've lost a lot of my passion, a lot of my dreams and a lot of me. I've been really thinking about what I've become..why do i do the things i do...why did i end up here?

When I was younger.....
I said I wanted to travel the world...

The Lost Translation....Into reality..
I can't take off work enough to travel to the
places i see my friends traveling to.

When I was younger...
I said I would finish school to be
an interpreter...but mostly a youth
group leader/paster.

The Lost Translation.. into reality..
I really have no clue when I'll finish school..
I don't know how I'll ever finish practicum and
I'm kinda scared to finish this program.
Really Scared.

When I was younger..
I had such a passion for God,
I wanted to serve Jesus.
I lived for Him.

The Lost Translation....Into Reality
I feel myself slowly slipping into
complacency.

When I was younger..
I knew I didn't want to Settle..

The Lost Translation...Into Reality
I've settled for less than i want.

When I was younger...
I was BOLD,
I didn't mind what people thought
of Me...
heck, at least I was myself...

The Lost Translation...Into Reality
I've lost most of my boldness.

It's so strange to think that all the things I loved in myself
I've given up.

All the things that are hard in my life
I try to avoid.
HONESTLY
I think I always have..
Yup!
I always have....
WHY?

DON'T GET ME WRONG...
I love my life with my husband,
I'm so excited to have a family with him!

I just wish i knew what happened to me.
I just wish I knew what happened
to my boldness.
my personality that i loved so much...
my honesty.
My Faith.
My Passion.
What happened to
my relationship with MY Jesus.
the one that made me what I loved so much
in myself.

I look at my entire family and see things i don't want to become. but it seems as though I'm destined to be. If I don't put effort into my life I will end up being what I never wanted to become.
A Procrastinator..
Fat.
Unorganized...
Lazy.
Complacent.

I look at my family and i see what i do want to be...
Loving..
Hardworking...
A Disciple...
Leader...
BOLD!