2008 will be Great...

This year i'm having a child,
but i can't feel it inside me right now

this year i'm having a child,
but i feel like a child myself.

This year how am i going to change things,
for the better?
for the worse?

"Great in 'O8" ?
or will it be
"Discontent in 'O8" ?

I have the power to make my life better,
or to hurt myself and others around me
so so much...

Now More Than Ever!

just a few words,
and it all could end...
everything i wanted my whole life

could end....so quickly!

Thankfully My God is stronger than me

THANKFULLY HE FIGHTS ON MY BEHALF!

I will continue to fight.
I will continue to press in when i don't want to.

MY new years resolution?

My New years resolution is..
To Keep my family together,
even if it hurts
even when i don't want to.
even if it means hurting the one person i
wish i never had to hurt.

But because i want my family
to be happy,
I have to hurt the ones i love most
So that i can be happy,
and eventually we can all be
happy
and healthy.

so,
will this year be everything i need?
Will this year be everything we have hoped for?

I guess we will see.


God Help Us, and be with us..
give me your love for my family.