Yup, I feel the depression wanting to come back into my mind. I feel it but I don't accept it!
I want to crawl into a hole and not come out for a week or two.
I look at my previous posts and I see the same thoughts cycleing thrugh my head . I am sick of it and I really don't want to do it anymore. I see a trend with my blog... My thoughts revolve around how frustrated I am with myself that I haven't finished school and I am not what I know I should be. Instead of making a way to crawl out of the hole I tend to dig deeper. More pain and more lies set in and I feel even more lost, defeted and aggrivated.
Ultimatly I am frustrated by my choices.
I want to crawl into a hole and not come out for a week or two.
I want to stop talking to the people who challenge me !
I want to but I refuse to do so!
I look at my previous posts and I see the same thoughts cycleing thrugh my head . I am sick of it and I really don't want to do it anymore. I see a trend with my blog... My thoughts revolve around how frustrated I am with myself that I haven't finished school and I am not what I know I should be. Instead of making a way to crawl out of the hole I tend to dig deeper. More pain and more lies set in and I feel even more lost, defeted and aggrivated.
Ultimatly I am frustrated by my choices.
No sugar coating thoughts of God will change that.
I need to be real,
I need to get this out
I need to talk to a professional.
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That's wisdom, Beek. I'm proud of you.
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